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Date: Wednesday, May 18, 2005 || Time: 7:28 PM
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hahax... tittle anyhow choose one la... :P haiz... today tat mrs wrong call me to stay back for a "chat" with her... so pathetic(ok... tat word again...:P)... first thing she say "Are you still in band?" Lolx... then i told her the truth and explained why... she see my results and felt that she had no comments about it... then to know me better... i tink she sort of try to consell me about my cca... haix... then she bla bla bla... say it will be a waste to quit band now... then say i should continue... cos band sure can get A1... then got 2 bonus marks... i knew all tat liaox... but then i still have no decision... i told her i dun noe abt whether i wan to quit... but in the end... she still leave the decision to me... haix... i feel hopeless... :P
Why i wan to quit?: - MOST IMPORTANT! Cos i felt so lonely in band(to be frank)... i wan somebody to be my best friend in band... but i can't bcos i sometimes got go band sometimes neva... then my friends were lyk... u noe... they all go have a new friend... then i am all so lonely... i felt so independent. - Ok fine... because i sometimes got go band sometimes neva go... my intrument skills neva seems to be improving... thus... my juniors dun respect me(i tink i deserve it afterall...) they tink i am a freako... - Okokok... I participated in the SYF outdoor finals... but for indoor tis year... i find tat my skills is so lousy tat i have no face to go for tat competition... i cried once during my practice when i couldn't play well enough to help the band... then jingjing( my section leader) and my fellow members saw i cried... n of cos... they asked me why i cried? then i lied to them tat i stomachace... gurl's prob... haiz... is lyk... i dun noe how to say... haiz... i find myself so lousy tat i tink i am onli up to sec 2 standard... Then one friday after our band prac... i had phyics tuition... So when i was dismissed at 5.45p.m (my tuition starts at 6.15pm), my section wans to get together for marching... then i told one of my leaders tat i have tuition later n i've got to go now... then she lyk dun believe me... tinkin tat i trying to escape frm marching... thus... she say "If you tink tat band is something not important, you can go now!" i was lyk so shocked... i jus stood there... then she say again "You can go now! You are dismissed!" Oh man... i still can clearly remember the scene... everybody was looking at me... i feel so... haiz... embarrased... the next day... a saturday... i felt so embarrased tat i felt that i dun have the "face" to go back to band... so... i ended up sleeping at home... i didn't go of cos... i was so fed-up and upset... haiz... sobx... Thus, i never join the SYF competition... OK... now you noe why... i neva ever tried to explain so clearly to anyone bfore... no even to wan hong or xiu yan or anybody else... haiz... Let's change the topic...(yes i have lots of time)hahax... as well as my bro dun chase me out... better type faster... Today IT lesson was quite interesting... We got to learn a new IT skill... Using the Ulead Movie Editor... It was kinda fun... hahax... I tink xy sure do until veri nice wan... :P |
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"when life gets hard, screw it"
Wen Qian (:ex-YNPSex-SPFerex-SRJCianNUS Computingsweet 19young at heart (: your typical Singaporean|
Date: Wednesday, May 18, 2005 || Time: 7:28 PM
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hahax... tittle anyhow choose one la... :P haiz... today tat mrs wrong call me to stay back for a "chat" with her... so pathetic(ok... tat word again...:P)... first thing she say "Are you still in band?" Lolx... then i told her the truth and explained why... she see my results and felt that she had no comments about it... then to know me better... i tink she sort of try to consell me about my cca... haix... then she bla bla bla... say it will be a waste to quit band now... then say i should continue... cos band sure can get A1... then got 2 bonus marks... i knew all tat liaox... but then i still have no decision... i told her i dun noe abt whether i wan to quit... but in the end... she still leave the decision to me... haix... i feel hopeless... :P
Why i wan to quit?: - MOST IMPORTANT! Cos i felt so lonely in band(to be frank)... i wan somebody to be my best friend in band... but i can't bcos i sometimes got go band sometimes neva... then my friends were lyk... u noe... they all go have a new friend... then i am all so lonely... i felt so independent. - Ok fine... because i sometimes got go band sometimes neva go... my intrument skills neva seems to be improving... thus... my juniors dun respect me(i tink i deserve it afterall...) they tink i am a freako... - Okokok... I participated in the SYF outdoor finals... but for indoor tis year... i find tat my skills is so lousy tat i have no face to go for tat competition... i cried once during my practice when i couldn't play well enough to help the band... then jingjing( my section leader) and my fellow members saw i cried... n of cos... they asked me why i cried? then i lied to them tat i stomachace... gurl's prob... haiz... is lyk... i dun noe how to say... haiz... i find myself so lousy tat i tink i am onli up to sec 2 standard... Then one friday after our band prac... i had phyics tuition... So when i was dismissed at 5.45p.m (my tuition starts at 6.15pm), my section wans to get together for marching... then i told one of my leaders tat i have tuition later n i've got to go now... then she lyk dun believe me... tinkin tat i trying to escape frm marching... thus... she say "If you tink tat band is something not important, you can go now!" i was lyk so shocked... i jus stood there... then she say again "You can go now! You are dismissed!" Oh man... i still can clearly remember the scene... everybody was looking at me... i feel so... haiz... embarrased... the next day... a saturday... i felt so embarrased tat i felt that i dun have the "face" to go back to band... so... i ended up sleeping at home... i didn't go of cos... i was so fed-up and upset... haiz... sobx... Thus, i never join the SYF competition... OK... now you noe why... i neva ever tried to explain so clearly to anyone bfore... no even to wan hong or xiu yan or anybody else... haiz... Let's change the topic...(yes i have lots of time)hahax... as well as my bro dun chase me out... better type faster... Today IT lesson was quite interesting... We got to learn a new IT skill... Using the Ulead Movie Editor... It was kinda fun... hahax... I tink xy sure do until veri nice wan... :P |
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