haiz... me goin depressed again... i have a few things tat make me so sad... feelin so terrible... haiz...

Well, i realli kinda miss band now... I miss it bcos it is so bored at home... haiz... I see my pri sch best frien... she dun have any music background n yet now she is a band major liaox... so sad... it makes me feel tat i am realli a freaker, a loser n a betrayer... haiz... I realli regret y I didn't want to turn up for band practices... Now, i can't blame anyone but me myself... However, there's one person hu is kind of "responsible" for my actions... The person... a she... i dun feel lyk telling hu izzit... but she always tell me not to go band... now i noe y... she pulled me home... she wan me to accompany her go home... haiz... wat the... is she tryin to make use of me?? gosh... Its now jus too late to go back to band... cos i dun dare to show my face... i noe the juniors will be mad at me... I noe my playin skills will drop... haiz... i dun have the courage to face it... I am realli ashamed of myself... Being in a band tat participates so many events... its of cos busy... its not lyk other sch band... where they seldom have events for them to perform...

Haiz... another thing happened last nite... i cried... its soo scary... My mother n I went shopping yesterday... N i was kind of veri happi bcos my mum bought for me any things tat i wanted... (crap things... those cute cute ones) when i reach home after i bath all tat... i jus went to bed... n i tot i would jus leave my spectacles on the bed as i will be wearing it after resting on the bed for abt 5 min... then my mum tell me to help her push the bed frame together wif the mattress to one side... for some purposes... then as i went back to my bed... i jus hop onto it... i forgot i am not wearin my spectacles! n when i sat on the bed... i saw my specs... n it was bent... haiz... i was so sad... feelin so miserable... i hop onto the bed n my feet excactly landed on my spec... haiz... i cried lyk mad... haiz... i managed to bent it back but still a bit of weird... I had realli changed 3 spectacles in 2 years already... n the spec tat i am currently wearin... its new... i changed it in March... its onli abt three months old... n yet now... haiz... the whole spec (frame n lens) r new one... i will get murdered if i make spoil... haiz... its always kana bent then spoil... its always lyk tat... n its always i get hitten by bball n my spec fall on the floor n spoil... haiz... i guess its all fated... haiz... dun cry over spilled milk... haiz... i learnt my lesson not to leave my specs on the bed... haiz...

Haiz... i am so depressed... N tis morning i wan to do my geog holidays hw... i search around my home for tat single piece of paper tat contain all the assignment... but guess wat... it can't be found... i dun noe where i left it... most probably is lost liaox... hahax... tis is me:

The messy gal

That have a messy room

Messy hair

N messy table

Haha... ME-->> The unorganised gurl... hahax... sianxx... tis friday got tution again... i dun feel lyk goin cos tis friday tuition xy wun be cumin as she had left Singapore to Cambodia... haixx... i wished i would have gone too... At least i can do something meaningful during the holidays... rather than being caged at home doin nothing... haiz... ok... i will stop here... cyaz...

haiz... me goin depressed again... i have a few things tat make me so sad... feelin so terrible... haiz...

Well, i realli kinda miss band now... I miss it bcos it is so bored at home... haiz... I see my pri sch best frien... she dun have any music background n yet now she is a band major liaox... so sad... it makes me feel tat i am realli a freaker, a loser n a betrayer... haiz... I realli regret y I didn't want to turn up for band practices... Now, i can't blame anyone but me myself... However, there's one person hu is kind of "responsible" for my actions... The person... a she... i dun feel lyk telling hu izzit... but she always tell me not to go band... now i noe y... she pulled me home... she wan me to accompany her go home... haiz... wat the... is she tryin to make use of me?? gosh... Its now jus too late to go back to band... cos i dun dare to show my face... i noe the juniors will be mad at me... I noe my playin skills will drop... haiz... i dun have the courage to face it... I am realli ashamed of myself... Being in a band tat participates so many events... its of cos busy... its not lyk other sch band... where they seldom have events for them to perform...

Haiz... another thing happened last nite... i cried... its soo scary... My mother n I went shopping yesterday... N i was kind of veri happi bcos my mum bought for me any things tat i wanted... (crap things... those cute cute ones) when i reach home after i bath all tat... i jus went to bed... n i tot i would jus leave my spectacles on the bed as i will be wearing it after resting on the bed for abt 5 min... then my mum tell me to help her push the bed frame together wif the mattress to one side... for some purposes... then as i went back to my bed... i jus hop onto it... i forgot i am not wearin my spectacles! n when i sat on the bed... i saw my specs... n it was bent... haiz... i was so sad... feelin so miserable... i hop onto the bed n my feet excactly landed on my spec... haiz... i cried lyk mad... haiz... i managed to bent it back but still a bit of weird... I had realli changed 3 spectacles in 2 years already... n the spec tat i am currently wearin... its new... i changed it in March... its onli abt three months old... n yet now... haiz... the whole spec (frame n lens) r new one... i will get murdered if i make spoil... haiz... its always kana bent then spoil... its always lyk tat... n its always i get hitten by bball n my spec fall on the floor n spoil... haiz... i guess its all fated... haiz... dun cry over spilled milk... haiz... i learnt my lesson not to leave my specs on the bed... haiz...

Haiz... i am so depressed... N tis morning i wan to do my geog holidays hw... i search around my home for tat single piece of paper tat contain all the assignment... but guess wat... it can't be found... i dun noe where i left it... most probably is lost liaox... hahax... tis is me:

The messy gal

That have a messy room

Messy hair

N messy table

Haha... ME-->> The unorganised gurl... hahax... sianxx... tis friday got tution again... i dun feel lyk goin cos tis friday tuition xy wun be cumin as she had left Singapore to Cambodia... haixx... i wished i would have gone too... At least i can do something meaningful during the holidays... rather than being caged at home doin nothing... haiz... ok... i will stop here... cyaz...