Nobody will ever understand me... i really hate it... why? why? today had my chem paper and alot of pple say its easy and i couldn't do it... i think is yesterday i slept for like 2 hours and can u believe it i stayed through the nite studyin chem and my efforts didnt seem to pay off at all... haiz... yea so i cried again... worse still... i reached home and told my parents abt me doing badly in chem and then again... i got nagged by my dad... yea... so now as im typing im crying... why?! why?! why they wanna force me go JC? u so desperate u go urself la... nobody ever understand the pressure im in... and seriously... i think its because of them pressurizing me and thats why i have such a low self esteem and confidence... really... im juz not fit to be in JC then why force me too? I really hate it... my dad kept nagging about going JC EVERYDAY and sometimes i got so stressed that i slam my door shut at him... yea i neva ever told anybody abt my family wanting me to go JC cos i noe im not fit to be in there and mayb... if pple got to know tis... they will laugh their heads off... haiz... so today after chem paper 2 i was like abt to cry and still Anshul pangseh me and ran for her bus... can't she console me a little... is that too much to ask for? haix... tis world is really a cruel one... really...

So... on a lighter note... O levels had gone by in abt less than 2 weeks... now im free and no more constant mugging.. how i hope i can have a second chance to redo my o levels... haiz... hope i can do well... jux to keep my parents happy... yea... its like i've got no sense of having self-achievement cos im like mugging jus to get good grades to keep my parents happy?

Someone can console me? i wish im not in this cruel world... how i hope im not born in the first place so i could be out of this misery world...

Nobody will ever understand me... i really hate it... why? why? today had my chem paper and alot of pple say its easy and i couldn't do it... i think is yesterday i slept for like 2 hours and can u believe it i stayed through the nite studyin chem and my efforts didnt seem to pay off at all... haiz... yea so i cried again... worse still... i reached home and told my parents abt me doing badly in chem and then again... i got nagged by my dad... yea... so now as im typing im crying... why?! why?! why they wanna force me go JC? u so desperate u go urself la... nobody ever understand the pressure im in... and seriously... i think its because of them pressurizing me and thats why i have such a low self esteem and confidence... really... im juz not fit to be in JC then why force me too? I really hate it... my dad kept nagging about going JC EVERYDAY and sometimes i got so stressed that i slam my door shut at him... yea i neva ever told anybody abt my family wanting me to go JC cos i noe im not fit to be in there and mayb... if pple got to know tis... they will laugh their heads off... haiz... so today after chem paper 2 i was like abt to cry and still Anshul pangseh me and ran for her bus... can't she console me a little... is that too much to ask for? haix... tis world is really a cruel one... really...

So... on a lighter note... O levels had gone by in abt less than 2 weeks... now im free and no more constant mugging.. how i hope i can have a second chance to redo my o levels... haiz... hope i can do well... jux to keep my parents happy... yea... its like i've got no sense of having self-achievement cos im like mugging jus to get good grades to keep my parents happy?

Someone can console me? i wish im not in this cruel world... how i hope im not born in the first place so i could be out of this misery world...